In fact, I really never have heart or breathing pattern changes while reading books or listening to music. Many people are just like that. Not being better or worse than you because of that.
"Sick twisted compulsion" was actually nothing else but a copy/paste of the end of millercarbon's awful insult aimed at another member/s here. I am surprised you did not catch that. In case you miss it this time again, "awful" was taken from the same paragraph and that paragraph was nothing but insult.
Thanks for recommendation, I will see if I can get it. Hope yours is going well.